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Tue, 12 May 2009 22:14:27 -0400

Miss U.S.A can’t answer truthfully without being blacklisted.
Joan Rivers is an apprentice.

Government is back to playing daddy and getting involved in things that should be best left untouched by them.
Tucker’s family should get government bailout check too.

To be politically correct is in:
people should join Twibes... but not say Swine Flu.

If I vowed to shop at only “white” owned stores would I be racist, or part of an empowerment experiment.

The Governor of Florida can’t accept wedding gifts,
the Obama’s can accept a dog from a Senator.

Heidi and Spencer are considered celebrities
McDonalds makes the best cup of coffee.

Someone told me this week that “Bill O’Reilly is for entertainment, I get my news from Jon Stewart”.
Lost is still on TV.

Dead people are getting stimulus checks.
Obama laughs at Un-PC jokes in public, the former mayor of Los Alamitos and The New York Post not laughing.

"Do not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand."

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 20:05:24 -0400

There are a lot of television shows out there currently that choose to examine life and the negative and positive aspects of it. But in those 30 minutes, hour, or longer, fiction allows for something to happen that in reality will never happen.
Soap operas show towns where friendships, relationships, business all revolves around the same handful of people. They love, they fight, but they never disappear from one anothers lives...

“Being Erica”, one of this season’s new shows examines what it would be like if you could go back and change those moments that you think messed everything up, or changed things for the worse. For the first time, I can say I wish that that could happen.

Recent events have occurred that have changed things for me. And in this moment a “fix” doesn’t even seem possible. I sit here right now with nothing but regrets and the wish that I could take back the moments that led to it but I can’t. No amount of sorry’s or tears can wash away the self inflicted pain or embarrassment that I feel. Not a moment has gone by since, that I haven’t thought about it or the person involved. The empty feeling in my gut is the minimal punishment that I deserve. The hatred I am sure that is felt towards me is.

So how does one steer away from that. Or attempt to at the least forgive oneself for their actions? I messed up, I know that. I am sorry for that night. And I wish that there was something that I could do or say. But maybe that person is right, to keep me away. To forget about me.